Listen to your body

I am sick and i don't like it even if it means a sick leave. Rest.

I spent my whole week scouring Metro Manila for relatives that my father wanted to visit while he was here. I understand his need to reconnect with his old friends and relatives here since the last time that he saw them was way back in 1973. Can you imagine that? It does not mean though that he never visited Manila in all those years. He would usually come here for business porpuses. Strictly business. Those would usually last for a couple of days at the most.

While i was with papa visiting relatives during the day, i would come to work at night. I would usually get 2-3 hours sleep. Imagine me dragging myself from my bed after only 2-3 hours of sleep. Believe me, its not a pretty sight and my father pitied me for it which i don't want because he might decide to cancel all his visits to the people he missed for several years.

Up until now, i am still aching all over from all those travels by bus and jeepneys. Then on Tuesday i my voice started to sound hoarse which i simply ignored. I just kept on drinking lots and lots of water and still continued taking my vitamins. Contratry to my usual overyly late meals and unbalanced diet, i was eating nutritious and deliciously cooked meals because papa is one superb cook. Also, I cannot remember a single minute wherein i walked under the rain so i did not worry about getting sick.

That hoarse voice escalated to severe colds and now every single word uttered is an agony for me. i have a very inflamed throath that my agents are starting to notice already. My ears us even affected already. It is such a pain speaking but i have no choice but to talk because i have to do my coaching session. I was already offered by my OM a sick leave yesterday so i can rest but i declined. However, i ended up going on half day yesterday. I went home at around 2 am. I slept the whole time i was at my place. That was more than 15 hours but i woke up with a throbbinh head ache. I tried talking to my self to test my voice but the first few words i uttered were soundless. Nice try Marigold!

On my way home, i cannot control my coughing no matter how much i try for the benefit of the 2 years old cute girl sitting next to me. The fx driver had to ask me to repeat myself twice while i was asking him to drop me off at Textite because he wasn't hearing me. I was speaking soundlessly again.

This is the first time that this has ever happened to me. I used to have painful sore throath but i never lost my voice. I planned to only work on paper works and Jb will do all the talking but it is impossible. I know that as long as i come to work, my situation is bound to get worse but i don't feel comfortable not being around.

I feel helpless like when my outlook is not working or i don't have a calculator beside me at work. But this time, its not just psychological but physical pains as well.

I am already being teased for not being the "usual" me.

I have always prided myself to be one heck of a strong lady. I rarely get sick even though i am only 95 lbs. I am not known to take any precautions, i eat what i like, i was always in need of sleep and i hardly rest even if i am always tired. I thought of my self incapable of getting sick. I thought only "weak" peopke get sick. I was mistaken.

Obvioulsy, i am taking my health seriously already. I hate being told by every one that i look tired and haggard. Its not very flattering but what can i do if i am coughing all day long. .